A Valentines Special

Me: if not, you come over in the evenings?

Friend: it's V. day!!! u guys should spend some time alone

Me: oh ya!

Me: no need lah. unless you have a date. =P

Me: we every day so loving already mah.

Friend: haha... no date... but chatting w a guy online

Friend: can b more loving on v. day

Me: we are not romatic most of the time. i think some ocassional small acts do occur,, but most of the time they are unplanned.

Friend: do u think i should find someone who has a successful career or rich or at least ambitious??

Friend: if it's a low-level civil servant w laid back attitude...

Me: i cant tell you that

Me: i personally didnt look for riches

Me: ambition for me is important though, but i didnt find it in brendan

Me: how about just someone who loves you

Me: and you love

Friend: yah... u guys were young n the attraction was so strong that u can't think straight

Me: i think that is for me,,,, important

Me: in terms of practicality, riches is important....... but riches is fickle too.

Me: what will you do with someone who may seek for younger girls when we hit like 60.

Me: so,, to me,,, the love is important.

Me: it is hard to find a right guy,, i dont think he exists. we just have to make it work or at least make it worth working.

Friend: yah... i'm listening to frank sinatra now..'when somebody loves u, it's no good unless they loves u..all the way"

Me: go with your gut feelings

Me: ah haha.

Me: you know, bren & i also have differing views abt ever lasting love.

Me: although we may feel like we are ever lasting, he is quite impartial.

Me: that day, i dreamt of quite an emotional dream

Me: i dreamt that singapore was at war and there was major chaos & unrest

Me: everyone had to evacuate and everyone ran under police's custody / protection

Me: i was with my dad and we were supposed to go back to the flat to meet my mom & sis and then evacuate together

Me: then we realised we were short of one paperwork which was needed to show the police to prove our citizenship

Me: i told my dad to go get the document and then meet us up at the flat. while i go get the people ready.. cos everyone was panicking.

Me: sorry my story is so long

Me: when i got to the flat,, there was my mom, sis, my sis' best friend and one young boy like 5 yrs old. (seemed like my son or something)

Me: the policewoman was at the door and she was taking attendance and asking us to quickly leave with her if we want protection.

Me: my mom got up to leave

Me: then i told her to SIT DOWN

Me: i said no one leaves

Me: i told the policewoman,, you leave. we are on our own. cos i am waiting for my dad to meet us here.

Friend: continue

Me: the police woman said ok, we're on our own. they will monitor and see if we managed to survive the war

Me: then i turned to my family and said, we must wait for my father cos we cannot change a plan half way through and leave the person stranded.

Me: i didnt ask for their opinion, i just took charge.

Me: so that was the end of the dream

Me: i was sharing my dream with brendan and he said i could have let my family go with the police first

Me: then the chances of safety is higher

Me: i said there is no point to survive if the family dont survive as a whole

Friend: u wanted to stick together

Me: what's the point of living when your family died

Friend: wah...

Me: i said as a family, you must strife together, like that make it or break it, you are together

Me: he kept quite, didnt argue or what but he was understanding me.

Me: this is what i will do in real life too

Me: so no matter how long you are with a person, you may be still learning about the person

Me: to quote albert enstien (sp) "the answers change"

Me: what you will do today in a given situation,, you may do it differently a couple of years later.

Me: while some things you wouldn't change.

Me: if a guy makes you tingle a little, heart beat faster a little, makes you wanna dress up a little,

Me: i say go for it.

Me: who cares what others have to say

Me: i dont

Me: find love

Me: we are here to explore it, get hurt by it, express it and most of all, to experience it.

Me: wow i can coin a quote now

Me: hahahahhaha

Friend: haha